Just now using LJ's new posting interface whatchamawhoosit. Looks less blocky, I guess.
So! I hope everyone's been well since Thanksgiving. I've been okay, in a sense. Both MicroMascots and Jackalope Hollow's sales are slowly overcoming the inertia I mistakingly set them in, but I'm fixing that and becoming consistent in my pursuits. I'm also becoming less scatterbrained and more schedule-oriented and self-driven. These things are important for success (in my own mind anyway).
The real problem I'm facing right now is burnout. I work at my day job and work on my own creative job and am happy with the results I'm producing! But I often forget to take actual days off from both and I'm afraid it's wearing me down fast. I know I have the capability to finish everything I set out to do, but I still manage to get stressed and freak myself out. This isn't healthy in the least.
In the near future I plan on accquiring one of those whiteboard calendars to hang above my desk, and will clearly mark which days are designated as "off" on them. My creative work is the love of my life, but I really do need to take a clear break at least once a week. I think I'll be doing a lot better after that. My planned vacation-from-everything in a few weeks should do me some good as well.
I told myself I'd document the things I'm thankful for this year and here I am doing it. This year I'm thankful for:
My Family: as always. My whole family came over to our apartment for dinner, which we cleaned up and decorated real nice. It was the first time my dad has seen the place since Sam and I moved here, and he told us it was nice. Too bad he forgot his inhaler and was getting itchy from the bunny. D= I'm also thankful for:
Sam: He's a really sweet guy and I love him to pieces. I'm so happy to have him in my life! He keeps me up when I'm feeling down, he appreciates everything I do for him, and without him I wouldn't have this opportunity to live on my own. I'm very thankful to have such a good friend and lover, and I hope we stay together for a long time.
The Book: Y'know, the children's book I just finished? It wasn't a super-high paying gig, but the income from it is allowing me to venture into new business projects and purchase a more fuel-efficient vehicle. As an added bonus I can now say I'm a published illustrator, which will help lead to even more gigs! I'm very thankful to have had this opportunity, it's been a great experience in hard work and perseverance. And Photoshop.
A Job that isn't Terrible: My new job at Domino's is pretty boss. I get just enough hours without it being too many, my co-workers are nice, my managers aren't dicks and the work is super easy. I'm planning on staying here until I either move or make enough from self-employment to not need the job anymore.
General Well-Being: Some days I feel a bit down, and that's okay. But then I stop and think about all the good things about my life. I have a supportive family, a loving boyfriend, a roof over our heads that we support, a job, a business that's gradually expanding, and a good head on my shoulders. I'm in good health, and have health insurance for when I'm not. I'm not exactly where I want to be in life, but I'm moving in the right direction and know I'll be there soon.
I hope all of you had a happy Thanksgiving. Or Thursday if you're outside of the US. Be well.
Well, Hurricane (excuse me post-tropical storm) Sandy is over, and I'm happy to say that Sam and I and my family back at their home are very much safe. We never lost power (save for a few flickers) or experienced any dangerously high winds. There were some gusts here and there but nothing too serious. I really feel for those in NYC and along the NJ coast. Ocean City, MD and the Delaware beaches as well. Seeing photos of places underwater is terrifying, especially when they're places I've been before. I hope anyone stuck there stays safe.
Now that the storm scare is over it's back to life as usual for me. For those still feeling the effects, be well.
I'm a freelance illustrator. I'm a small business owner that's looking to expand quickly. I'm responsible for paying all my own bills now. And I'm starting to understand what real stress is.
It's new territory, but I'm learning to manage it. Like anything else I just practice different techniques and try new things to find out what works for me. Sometimes it's scary, but most of the time it's not. Fear makes the wolf bigger than it actually is, so it's best to not let yourself get scared. I won't let anything stand between myself and greatness. There are too many people who need me.
With that being said, I have a children's book to finish illustrating. Very much looking forward to holding my printed copies very soon.
Last night I went to a Domino's Pizza for a job interview and they liked me and hired me right there without a drug test or anything for some reason (not that I would've failed it). So yeah. New job. Which means I can quit my old one. Put in my two-week's notice today.
I could go into detail about why I've grown to despise this job, but instead of wasting a bunch of time doing that I'll leave you with one example:
There's this guy in our department who was transferred from the deli because management was too cheap to hire a new person. He doesn't want to be in bakery so that was a dick move on management's part, but he's there. This guy sort of half-asses a lot of work, and he's talks to much and doesn't get stuff done as quickly as he should. And he has shown up to work anywhere from 1/2 hour to 2 hours late on at least eight separate occassions. And He's no-call-no-showed twice.
And he still has a job.
Even though according to the company handbook he should have been fired weeks ago, he's still there because management likes him. I know there are greasy managers out there, but if I don't have to work for them I won't. That's why I got a new job.
More documentation later. One day, when I have time, I'm going to peruse through this journal to reflect or whatever.